It is now middle of November and things did not turn out the way I wanted them to when I started the blog. I was so excited before the Ivf appointment we had.
We had the appointment at 2 pm and sitting at the doctors I could sense that Rob was agitated. We had to sit and wait for 30 minutes and Rob had the shits.
The we meet Dr Frank Quinn and had a chat to him. He tried to give his view on things. I asked him about what is our chances of conceiving naturally and he responded about 4% chance. then Rob asked him about if the chance increases with the amount tries you do, which he said yes to. We talked as well about his sperm,doing IUI and ISCI.
Anyway,we left the clinic and Robs says - I think we can do this ourself,. I don;t want to go ahead with this.
i can only say that we screamed at each other in the car. Very nasty stuff. I was absolutely floored.
He then said that he thought that we hadn't tried as long as I said to the doctor. What????? I started my dairy and can go back to the exact date but still we hadn't tried for that long. I can understand in saying we hadn't tried to the optimal with knowing ovulation etc until later on but we could not agree with this. I then said that this is something I do not what to argue about. Silence the rest of the way home.

Later on that night when we got into bed we started to talk again and that conversation did not go any better. The conclusion in the end was that I did not have clue about anything (regarding timing of intercourse and ovulation etc) and all is my fault really.....

since then I have been devastated and have not had the strength to deal with this. I can understand that his manhood is on the agenda but I feel that I get older by the minute and for a while I felt that I will never have a child. But then I started to think about my use of the internet and I check up on every detail and info I can get on infertility and ivf meanwhile he hasn't. So I am thinking he hasn't got to terms with having IVF in the same way that i have. I will give him a bit of time...but I want a time that this is the date where we will seek help again. I am thinking maybe March or something....